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In the meantime…

Thursday, July 30th, 2009

…I’m waiting for two things: one for the baby to arrive - today is my due date, and two, to work out how to upload my feet at dawn video entry that contains lots of stop frame feet images shot at dawn.

In the meantime I’m sorting through old notebooks and trying to find a stashed away but accessible place for them…I found this rough note along the way that I thought I might work more on.


The dark was so dark it had hands that pinned me to the flattened mattress and stuck a knee in my solar plexus. Outside starlight stiffened me like a starfish chucked in a bucket on a tumbledown pier. I did not struggle. A whole night where I tried not to tug at the edge of the madness. The Irish guy who had stayed an extra five days and still could not sleep at night. Days haunted by a purple cartoon of a motorbike accident, pages whipping open on it in the wind as sand blew round our ears and overtly muscular cats clawed at fish bones at our feet and spat hunger at each other.

Then this note from Anne Sexton:


‘Sometimes my doctors tell me I understand something in a poem that I haven’t integrated into my life . In fact I may be concealing it from myself, while revealing it to the readers.’

The feet at dawn and perhaps an incident in the dark, possibly connected. Meanwhile, I wait for the baby to make the journey from light to dark to light again.

Progression 5

Wednesday, July 29th, 2009

March Forth.

My friend Jay likes her birth date.
She says its a call to action: March 4th.

Her dread locks are tower blocks,
forehead for sky, nose: a shrouded figure

speeding by, back packed with sketchbooks
and gas masks, jeans patched more times

than he’s matched sticks to spliffs. He is
a loose hoodied slouch with spray cans,

crouched in a train yard, headphoned and
nodding hard to lyrics so deep it digs back

to the African forest where it started, back
to talking drums. Now, they talk in drum

patterns, scattered in urban forests;
rappers rough tones riff against bars

just like spray cans hiss against walls,
they birth brilliance, doubled in the dark

before radio crackles, rail guards arrive ///

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I am considering a physical exchange here, a conflict? a back and forth.. dogs maybe? but am fearful it will clutter the boy… nothing has come clear and crisp enough which invites Occam’s razor (also known as Ockham’s razor) the principle that “entities should not be multiplied unnecessarily”, which really is the golden rule of poetry. But we will see. But I do like the movement to the sprinkled streets. This is close.

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signalling: it’s time to go, he packs bag
and goes - a winged shadow - floats

past yellow lines, glides over railings,
air vents, the clouds cry, a poverty stricken

kitten skips the sprinkled streets.

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Till Friday, Inua.

Photos For Thinking

Wednesday, July 29th, 2009

Recently I’ve been using photographs to develop ideas around writing. Earlier this year, I bought a Nikon D40. Much to the annoyance of my mates, I’ve been taking it everywhere. I’m still in that trigger happy honey moon period.

In April I started to take pictures of friends wearing hoodies. I found the pictures released ideas, questions and inspirations.

This is a picture of my friend Lydia. Not realising how zoomed in I was, I took a close up image of the enormous hoodie she was wearing. And then by total fluke, I got this image of a bus whizzing past as her head was turned to the side.

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This got me thinking about gender and hoodies. Is a female with a hood up more intimidating than a male? Simply by the way they’re made, do some hoodies portray different messages or images?

Again, the image below was an accident and just happened to come out with the foreground out of focus.

This got me thinking about our perceptions of what we see as ‘hoodies’. When we use that word, are we loading it with other understandings of delinquent youth, young people, ASBOs, masking and misbehavior? By ‘zooming’ in on the individuals that we view as disruptive, are we blurring our vision to the societal surroundings that can sometimes create that behaviour.

It’s unlikely that these photos will inspire writing about a girl in a hoodie or a bus passing. What they do give me is colour, concept and movement, foreground and background. All things that I can use when putting pen to paper.

Hoods Up: Guest Booker - Yemisi Blake

Monday, July 27th, 2009

We start from doodles and sketches. And sometimes we make real plans, and sometimes we just start building. Building is at the heart of the experience.
Gever Tully

Like many writers, when starting the first line of a poem, I’m already thinking about what the last line will be. Too often I try to rush to the message, the meaning, the cause of the poem. Sometimes this works, but most times it causes a kind of ‘tear my hair out’ frustration. Luckily, certain ideas make it known very early that you’re in for the long stretch.

Last year, I developed a keen interest (or obsession) for hoodies. The hoodie not only as clothing but as a political term (hug a hoodie), a cultural dress (hip-hop hoods up), but also as a noun and adjective (those damn hoodies stole my phone!).

Slowly my interest has morphed into artistic/ sociological research that will eventually become some kind of ‘piece’. (a lovely ambiguous term). During my time as a guest booker on Open Notebooks, I’ll be sharing my process of building this idea. I’ll also be writing a new poem for the Open Notebooks project.

Big shout out to Karen for starting inviting me to take part!

Progression 4

Monday, July 27th, 2009

I apologise, I have had computer trouble of late. Virginia is passing away, in about three months I will have to purchase a new machine, in the mean time.. poetry.

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March Forth.

My friend Jay likes her birth date.
She says its a call to action: March 4th.

Her dread locks are tower blocks,
forehead for sky, nose: a shrouded figure

speeding by, back packed with sketchbooks
and gas masks, jeans patched more times

than he’s matched sticks to spliffs. He is
a loose hoodied slouch with spray cans,

crouched in a train yard, headphoned and
nodding hard to lyrics so deep it digs back

to the African forest where it started, back
to talking drums. Now, they talk in drum

patterns, scattered in Urban Jungles…

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Too harsh? a Cliche? or too blackpowerish? hmmm… it is true though. Communicating with stuttered sound predated Morse code and existed in Africa in the form of talking drums. The beats were messages themselves. And hip hop possibly stemmed from this - as rappers rhyme within beats, and the aim is to flow effortlessly with it. This is a perfect link to the field hand, the inventor of blues mythologized in this poem.

Next hurdle is simple, I am wondering about “Urban jungle”/”urban forest” ‘Jungle is commonly used to describe inner-city areas, so I am leaning towards forest, but I must research to see where a talking drum might have been used.. forest or jungle.

the next step is to link this to the section beginning “a poverty stricken kitten” where the protagonist is chased or disturbed by security guards.

Monkey 3

Friday, July 24th, 2009

The monkey that bursts from my torso
burns toast and blisters thumbs.
It swings on bone asymmetric bars,
palms strapped in waxed cotton.

A doll-sized heel kicks in a balloon
bomb of raspberry leaves
while the monkey slides from rib to spine,
fast and strong as a drum,

slips from my grip, rattles
on my ribcage, forces an escape
to an English hillside
grey with rocks and a tupperware sky.

An old soul licks its lips,
swallows salt water, savours the taste
of roasted buffalo
flesh between teeth, wet with juice and blood.

Gulls tannoy traffic, wail
for sea when I wake in the morning,
listening for a heartbeat
under the screech of green lorakeets.

Monkey 2 - syllabics

Friday, July 17th, 2009

monkeydraft3

The monkey that bursts from my torso
burns toast and blisters thumbs.
It swings on bone asymmetric bars,
palms strapped in waxed cotton.

A doll-sized heel kicks in a balloon
bomb of raspberry leaves
while the monkey slips from rib to spine,
fast and strong as a drum.

An old soul licks its lips,
swallows salt water, savours the taste
of roasted buffalo
flesh between teeth, wet with juice and blood.

Need to add another stanza from the earlier draft where I wake from the dream but I’m not really in the dream but I’d like to capture the feeling afterwards - FEAR - of something bigger and stronger than you at work over which you have little control.

Shot at Dawn

Wednesday, July 15th, 2009

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Morning page notes shot at dawn. I like the sound at this time. Particularly in the city. Humans get pushed back. Leave the world for dreams. The wind has a time of its own. Before the birds. The elements are revealed. You can feel alone at dawn in a good way. Not lonely. That’s the difference. You’re stripped bare. Still in the half world. Even if you’re still up the sky, wind, sun, moon take over. Change colour, brighten. Wind rustles through foliage. It’s the sound and the rapidity of change. It’s like watching the earth age. Speeded up and slowed down at the same time. Time at its most naked, when it can’t be distorted by clocks. Anguish and joy move at the same rate.

Progression 3

Tuesday, July 14th, 2009

Back and Forth.

My friend Jay likes her birth date.
She says its a call to action: March Fourth.

Her dread locks are limp tower blocks, forehead
for sky, nose, a shrouded figure speeding by,

back packed with sketchbooks and gas masks,
jeans patched more times than he’s matched sticks

to spliffs. He is a loose hoodied slouch
with spray cans, crouched by a

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Still to decide how to link these together, but the question I am fighting with is how to end the poem

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a poverty stricken kitten

skips across the sprinkled streets, glitter litter
crisps the pavement, stone splits into doorway,

out whiffs a break beat as he enters it. Door shuts
with such finality it’s as if he never existed.

Never pressed a nozzle to colour walls,
or the rapper’s vocals never coloured bars…

The silence is blasphemous as the blues
played backwards, un-invented, trapped

in the fingernail of a field hand so straight-
jacketed, so stitched, he won’t twitch for shit,

and the unplayed guitar riff, like ghost graffiti,
reefs over his heart and dies.
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I am not a massive consumer of the green stuff, but have dabbled in it once or twice. I get kicks from discovering its various literary incarnations, at least 50 including ‘grass, weed, green, Mary J, Jamba, Spliff, Ganja, Bud, Blunt, Yay, Joint, Jay,’ or as Black Thought, front man for the Roots calls it, ‘The Tenth Letter’. It is insinuated in this poem… the graffer’s jeans are patched ‘more times than he has matched sticks to spliff’ and I choose to play on with ‘Jay’ as a term for weed, which fits with the slightly surreal nature of the poem as Jay’s face morphs into the city..

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Jay, I once smoked your name and a glimpse
of what I might have been, had I courage

enough to March Fourth, make canvas
of walls, and music of bars frightened me.

Flecks of if it speckle roads like blues riffs,
whiffs off aerosol or faint hip hop beats

But I trapped them in verse and it’s good  for me.

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This ending will definitely change.

Progression 2

Saturday, July 11th, 2009

Back and Forth.

My friend Jay likes her birth date.
She says its a call to action: March Fourth.

Her dread locks are limp tower blocks, forehead
for sky, nose, a shrouded figure speeding by,

back packed with sketchbooks and gas masks,
jeans patched more times than he’s matched sticks

to spliffs. He is a loose hoodied slouch
with spray cans, crouched by a train yard
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In that last post, I talked about wanting to keep the character, the graffer, static and save movement for later. I want him to run from the police / guards / etc which is a classic image in hip hop, someone rebelling against authority, the police specifically.  I see him running through a sleeping city and kinda threw this on the page. I think it needs to be more specific…

…and to bridge the gap to the blues player, I want him to enter a house, and for music to escape from it. When the door shuts. It stops everything. The Poem crashes to a halt. And this is time to throw in something wild, like a obscure link, a jump in time and space.

Reminds of something I think Stephen King said about writing….something along the lines of ‘if you do not know what to do next, let a man with a gun come in’

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a poverty stricken kitten

skips across the sprinkled streets, glitter litter
crisps the pavement, stone splits into doorway,

out whiffs a break beat as he enters it. Door shuts
with such finality it’s as if he never existed.

Never pressed a nozzle to colour walls,
or the rapper’s vocals never coloured bars…

The silence is blasphemous as the blues
played backwards, un-invented, trapped

in the fingernail of a field hand so straight-
jacketed, so stitched, he won’t twitch for shit,

and the unplayed guitar riff, like ghost graffiti,
reefs over his heart and dies.

tomorrow x

Karen McCarthy Woolf

karenreddressfull Karen McCarthy Woolf was born in London to an English mother and Jamaican father. Her poetry pamphlet The Worshipful Company of Pomegranate Slicers was selected as a New Statesman Book of the Year. She is also an editor. Check her website for more.

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